The worst day of my life

Today is our school's sports day.I m taking part in 200m,4x100m and 4x400m.Before the sports day,I m so scare of losing and I sms my friend,telling her my feelings and she told me to relax and compete with myself.After that,I told myself I must win,mo matter how.But what I did today,I lost in all 3 events.In 4x100m,I m the 1st runner,but what I did,I ran like a snail,can't even pass any runner.And guess what,is me who want the 1st lane.I feel like I am the one who made the team lose.Then is the 200m,which is getting worse.From the start 2 last,I keep on looking at others, passing by me.20m before the finishing line,I already gave up.After the run,I went out the stadium,cooling myself down.Legs starting to pain like hell.When I went in the stadium again,it was 400m L2.Benjamin was running.He got 1st for the event.Not longer,it was the last event,4x400m.I m also the first runner.Also the last,for my run and my team.So disappointing.Although our marching platoon got the 1st place,it was still a sad day for me.I had let them down,those who support me and trust me.Now even myself can't trust myself.